The Downside of Finishing a Novel

There will probably be a lot of self-pity and hand wringing in this post, so if your sympathy levels are low, perhaps stop reading now!

As I’ve written in previous posts, I finished the first draft of my novel in a mad splurge of writing on 1st December 2014. I waited until early January before I looked at it again. I reread and revised, reread and revised non-stop from then until 6th February when I sent it to an editor. Phew! Time to enjoy doing other things. See friends I’d neglected while I was writing. Have fun! Maybe have a little go at a couple of short stories I’ve been thinking about for ages, but otherwise, enjoy life.

So how’s the fun and enjoyment going? It’s not! I’m full of LASSITUDE.

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Lassitude: lethargy, listlessness, weariness, languor, sluggishness, enervation, tiredness, exhaustion, fatigue, drowsiness, torpor,  ennui, lifelessness, sloth, apathy.

Who knew there were so many synonyms for lassitude?!

I can’t be bothered to do anything because nothing seems to matter – not even the walk I planned today to enjoy the blue sky and sunshine.

After all the angst involved, and despite longing to finish it, I miss writing the novel. I miss my characters. I miss my involvement in their lives. To try to compensate, I’ve been working on the synopsis. But it’s something I don’t like doing at the best of times, and at the moment, it seems so superficial and emotionless.

I’m sure this will pass. Once I get it back from the editor (unless she savages it and I have to lie in a darkened room for a month to recover!), and I can work on it again, and then decide whether to try publishers, or to self-publish again, I know all will be well again. It’s got to be: the other thread of the original novel, which I abandoned to write the current one, is calling to me. Its voice is thin and distant, but I’m hoping its clamour will grow too loud to resist.

 

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6 Comments

  1. Hi Lindsay, lots of sympathy here, don’t worry. As one of the friends who needs desperately to catch up with you I’m glad you’very finished. But you know what I’m going to say is the cure for your current dissatisfaction, don’t you? Yes you do. Start another novel 🙂 It’s the only way xxx

  2. Lindsay says:

    Lovely to hear from you, Jo, and thanks for your sympathy. You are right about the next one, but I think I need to wait as I’m sure I’ll have rewrites to do on the current one. That’s why I thought a short story would be good – perhaps tomorrow!

  3. Derek says:

    But congratulations on getting it finished! And I do understand about the lassitude etc. Am in the same bind myself. Waiting right now for the final proofs to come back, checking my emails hourly for them. Meanwhile unable to get down to researching the next opus or writing all those mag articles.

  4. Lindsay says:

    Frustrating, isn’t it, Derek? So much I want to do and I hang about pining for a book I was desperate to finish. Hope your proofs arrive soon.

  5. Time for a well-deserved rest, then, once you’ve got your mojo back, catch up with us all 🙂 xx

  6. Lindsay says:

    You’re right, Polly, but the trouble is I can’t enjoy a rest. I’m too agitated!

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