The Unblogged Blog

It’s 23rd September and I last wrote my blog on 3rd September, twenty long days ago. Why the silence? Last September I did my A-Z blogging challenge, writing every day. A year on and nothing, or only two. Unblogged.

Being UN seems to sum up my life at the moment:

  • unmotivated
  • unhappy (more generalised feelings of sadness than actively unhappy, but that doesn’t fit my UN theme!)
  • unwell (not ill, but not exactly well either).

In Orwell’s 1984, an unperson had been vapourised – hadn’t just disappeared, but been wiped from existence completely. What a bleak world Orwell creates, and I’m not claiming such drama applies to me, but a general state of nothingness does.

I find myself questioning the value of a blog anyway. If I’m struggling to write it, perhaps people are UNinterested in reading it. What and who am I doing it for?

It’s not that I’m inactive. I’ve got a new short-term writing project on the go (hope to be able to give news of that soon); I’m organising my book launch; my new writing classes start this week, and I’m going on a course at the weekend.

But somehow it’s all without any sense of joy or excitement. Events feel UNeventful. And I don’t like it!

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16 Comments

  1. lynne says:

    I know exactly what you mean! Cant even be bothered to think of something intelligent to write. Then just decided to delete it and not bother at all. Then decided well that would be a complete waste – as is what I’m writing really. Somebody please just slap me! Must be the moon or the weather!!

  2. Lindsay says:

    Oh dear, Lynne. You sound in as bad a way as I am! Let’s hope things perk up soon – for both of us.

  3. julian says:

    Hi Lindsay,
    I was sorry to read about your continued unness. May I suggest a ‘StarWars’ approach. The UN is a bit like The Force. It has a dark side. Luckily there is the Jedi side.
    You could equally argue that you’re undamaged, unbeaten, undaunted or undeterred. See? So I think you may be worrying unnecessarily. Use the UN. It is strong in you………..

  4. We go through such times ~ is it mad to hope for things to improve? Maybe so. But let’s prefer to think ‘that’ rather than the alternative.

  5. Lindsay says:

    Thanks, Julian. I like the sound of undamaged, unbeaten, undaunted, unbeaten. I’ll keep working on that!

  6. Lindsay says:

    I know, Polly, and yes, I’m sure things will improve. Thanks for the support.

  7. Andrea Bourne says:

    Lindsay, last year I so enjoyed your A to Z of blog. Laziness on my part meant that I didn’t
    respond. I read, enjoyed and went on my way with my own un-ness! How many others did the same? I sometimes have difficulty stringing the spoken words together let alone writing it! We no longer handwrite letters, we have spell check on our iPads let alone text speak. Without your blogging the world would surely be a poorer place if you and your articulate blogs were no more…..un – block and let us continue to enjoy.

  8. Lindsay says:

    What a lovely comment, Andrea. I know at times we’re all stuck in our own un-ness. You have encouraged me to change unblogging into blogging. Thank you!

  9. Caroline says:

    I don’t think a twenty day pause between blog posts means the end of the world. You should see my poor neglected blog. I don’t think it’s possible to be productive all the time, either with writing generally or blogging. Surely you should be allowed fallow times when all is quiet. But I also enjoy reading your blog so don’t be disheartened.

    Caroline

  10. Lindsay says:

    You’re right, Caroline, fallow is good! It just doesn’t feel the right time so close to a book launch – but perhaps better than boring people to tears!

  11. Apparently there IS something happening in the stars which will cause all sorts of negative stuff until the 6th October! Perhaps you could try a few things – do something childishly fun, something that makes you laugh, that has nothing to do with writing – skipping, rolling down a hill, splashing in puddles, dancing, tickling, drawing silly cartoons, singing nonsense songs, clapping, making animal noises, try smiling really really really hard until your face aches etc.
    Spend some time sitting at the base of a large tree – ask the tree if it’s willing to listen to all your feelings and then tell it how you feel. Ask the tree to accept them from you, (they usually say yes). It will hopefully make you feel better as will any time spent in nature in the fresh air with barefeet.
    Clear out any clutter you may have and donate or dump it asap.
    Burn some rubbish – bonfires are very therapeutic! 😉
    What is underneath the feelings of ennui? Anger, sadness, pain, grief? The events may feel uneventful because they are external events – they are not internal feelings – what are your feelings trying to show you right now?
    Most of all BREATHE! The best way to get inspiration is get out in the fresh air and BREATH it in with your feet firmly planted on the mother earth. Visualize breathing in gold light and pushing it out of your fingertips and back down into mother earth.
    I hope you rediscover joy, curiosity and inspiration soon!
    Lots of love,
    Nicky xx

  12. Lindsay says:

    Thanks, Nicky for all those wonderful suggestions. Not sure I’ll be skipping or rolling down a hill(!), but I might stand a chance with some of the others. Thank you for taking the time to write such a lovely piece. And in the meantime – roll on 6th October!

  13. Vikki says:

    HUGE (((((hugs))))) honey

    Interesting what Nicky said about the stars as ive been feeling Unwell (but not ill as such) for the last 2 weeks.

    Lets hope come October the 6th we’ll back to our normal bouncy selves 🙂

    xx

  14. Lindsay says:

    Thanks for lovely response, Vikki. Sorry to hear you’re feeling unwell too, and hope things will look up for you as well. Yes, here’s to 6th October!

  15. Linda Bromyard says:

    Oh dear, you sound so sad, Lindsay. I hope you pick up again soon.

    I loved reading your A-Z and it gave me ideas for the library at school too.

    I have time on my hands at the moment as off work for a couple of weeks following surgery, but surprisingly feel quite well, but just got to take it easy! So if you are up to writing I am definitely up for reading your blog! I love hearing about what authors are up too.

    I have read the other comments, and all so lovely, you have so many friends interested in you, your writing and your well being, I really hope the Un-ness will be a very short phase.

    Thinking of you xxx

  16. Lindsay says:

    Thank you for your lovely, supportive comment, Linda. As you say, I’ve received some great support which really helps. I will write another blog post sometime this week, but I’ve just come back from a three-day workshop in London which has left me even more demoralised about my current novel, so today my un-ness feels stronger than ever. But I will get over it! Thanks again for your concern.

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